Sorry I have been absent for a few days but there's been some upheaval in my life.
I'll just cut to the chase. I get too angry, and I get too anxious, to be trusted by the people closest to me. And if I don't make changes quickly, I may sacrifice the quality and even presence of these relationships. So I have to make changes. Now. As in, Immediately. Or things may drastically change in my life.
This is personal.
And my life depends on this.
No, seriously. My life depends on this.
As someone who gives themselves the semi-pretentious title, "Coach For Your Heart," I want to make sure that my head, heart, and soul are in the best shape possible.
And I have been reminded in a very direct fashion that the aforementioned is in severe need of a tune-up.
I watch Greg Boyle videos. I have both the Unity Daily Word and A Course in Miracles apps on my phone's homescreens. I ask the names of the waitstaff in any establishment I frequent, and pay things forward.
And I have alienated people I love with my anger. I can get terribly depressed. I experience bouts of anxiety on a regular basis. I talk too much, mostly about myself, largely because I am insecure sitting in silence.
And I'm 60.
For me, this is the beginning of the last and best chapter of my life. It has to be.
There is no Plan "B", as they say. It's time to put up or shut up. Be the change I want to see and quit talking about it.
And, the irony is, I have taught people how to change for almost thirty years. I know how to improve and drastically transform your life. Yet, sometimes when my clients would tell me how much better they felt, inside, I would ask myself, "what did I say to make that happen, and how come it's not happening for me?"
It's time to get back to the drawing board and actually DO the things I know work. I started this three days ago, and now I'm asking you to join me in this process. Together, we can begin to repair and address whatever we need to heal.
IT MUST WORK BECAUSE I HAVE NO CHOICE. LIFE AS I KNOW IT DEPENDS ON IT!!!!!
(have I driven that point home enough?)
Please come with me on this journey. One Hundred Days. I must change. And if I can, I mean if you knew me, you'd know you can, too.